4 Elements


Fire, fire…Fire, it can destroy and it can create. Its fingers of flame can reach very high and with his volume it burns everything near his grip. Even Water will condense by the touch of Fire. But when Earth is touched by Fire, there will be new life. Earth becomes more fruitful again.


IMG_5594Air, air… Air takes care of a cool, new breeze. Air brings new life, it is never dull. We will hardly notice new life has arrived with the coming of Air. Sometimes Air tempers Fire and other times releases Fire’s wild energy. When everything is in balance, there is a chance of new life again.



IMG_5214Water, water…Water is life force. Powerful and gracious at the same time, Water will be destructive when she is furious. Water brings new life. Water is able to stop Fire, to sprew Earth with its life force and see… there is new life again.



IMG_5157Earth, earth… Earth stops Fire and makes itself fertile. The result will be new life. The seed, brought by Air is embraced by the soft arms of Earth and there, it starts to grow. Water feeds the seed. After a while Seed sprouts into a young sprig and at last into a big tree. There is life again. And this is the cycle of life. As long there is life, the life cycle will go on and on until the end of days.



Earth Angel Fair 2014

10501758_1671287676434622_827287552618986627_nIt was a perfect day, the day before yesterday! I visited the Earth Angel Fair, organized by Angels and meant for other Angels here on earth. To be specific, I am talking about Earth Angels. Earth Angels are reincarnated Angels, Starpeople, the Wise (like shamans and witches), Elementals (elves, nymphs) and other Earth Angels. We, Earth Angels decided to come to earth to help people, animals, nature and Mother Earth. Especially now Earth Angels are more than welcome on earth. All we want is to teach people to love again, to respect all what is and to feel reconnected with all living creatures, to be one again with life and ourselves.

I left early tha524t morning and because it was a beautiful day, blue sky, the sun was shining, no wind, I decided to take the bike to the railway station in Rotterdam. I was enjoying my journey to Rotterdam, all I heard were the birds singing and then, the silence, serenity.

The only humans I saw were the ones who were taking their dog for a walk, people doing their morning gyms and a farmer who had to stay up early to finish his job. The animals were also enjoying the Sunday morning and the weather.

Soest had the same serenity. I was walking to the fair from the railway station and enjoyed my new surroundings. At the fair I had a hard time focusing. I felt like an alien and couldn’t find the serenity I felt ten minutes ago. Finally I found the right lecture and workshop and felt happy again. Finally I had the feeling to be with the right people at the right place. I was in the company of other Earth Angels and felt no longer an alien anymore.

A shaman was present at the fair and I decided to join her lecture. Her lecture was about Mother Earth and her work. It felt like coming home and I could speak freely about all my own experiences as a young shaman. At the same time I received some teachings which were very interesting but not new to me. They were more a reminder what I already knew but lost it on my way getting older. My inner shaman couldn’t wait to get started.

il_570xN.461864587_3ri5My last workshop of that day was a dance workshop. It was the finishing touch of a great day. I hád to be there because dancing is my greatest passion. I didn’t know what to expect. Would it be a typical New Age dance on typical New Age music? Or would it be maybe the opposite of it? I really had no idea so up I went to the workshop. At the end of the workshop I was very relieved because I was wrong about it. The teacher was an earth angel I already met during my first workshop. I immediately felt she and I had much in common so it was oké. The dance workshop was awesome! The moves were familiar and it was a fantastic feeling again! At that moment I promised myself to dance more. Dancing is not only good for your figure but for many other things as well. Dancing gives you a feeling of freedom and you feel grounded again, getting back in touch with Mother Earth, life and yourself. After the workshop I felt balanced again. It was a wonderful experience and a wonderful end of an exciting day.

Walking back to the railway station I was daydreaming and thinking back of all my adventures that day. I was very happy to meet new people and was and am very thankful for all the gifts I received.


Full moon


Full Moon, full Moon

In all your Glory

Give your powerful energy

So Earth can feel it through her veins

Earth, impregnates by you,

Power, energetic power

Strong and soft like ebb and flood

Powerful, purity and healing

You standing there, alone

But also surrounded by Life

You’re looking down, looking at me

Looking at Earth

‘What else do you do?’

Is my question

‘Looking at your beauty and glory’

Is her answer

‘Until the days are passing by’

‘I will look over you’

           She who kisses Moon



It’s the time of the year: Christmas is in the air. It’s the time of cherish, light, darkness, short days, festivities, good food and most of all…. Celebrating Christmas with our family! Not everybody is celebrating Christmas, some people really do not like this period of the year. These persons feel lonely and can’t wait until Christmas has passed.


What’s the reason we celebrate Christmas? Christmas is a celebration of the ancient; even before the coming of Christianity people already celebrated it. The Christmas we know today derived from different cultures and religions which resulted into 1 big happening: Christmas….. In the Ancient times, the time of the Germanic people, Batavians and Celts, they celebrated winter solstice on the 21st of December. Winter solstice was about welcoming the Light and banishing the Evil. To be sure evil spirits got banished, they made great fires.

The Christmas tree is a well-known phe7ff8f3810731cd35a4e1d28d92b2060anomenal. Even the Ancient folks used a tree to celebrate winter solstice. The tree was at that time a symbol of fertility. Most of the people think the Christmas tree is a pine tree but in fact it is a spruce. Every year we enjoy decorating the beautiful spruce. Decorating a Christmas tree is a very old tradition. People in the 13th century already decorated their trees.

When Christianity became popular through Europe, the emperor Constantine and his bishops decided to celebrate Christmas on the 25th of December. They had their good reasons and those were to kethe-birth-of-jesusep the Ancient folks and the Romans quiet and happy. The Ancient folks already celebrated Solstice on the 21st of December but the Romans also had a celebration which was the same as the Ancient folks, but it had a different name. The Romans called it Saturnalia and this festivity lasted a couple of days. All Romans had the days off in this period. Saturnalia was the festivity of the light and dedicated to the Roman god of the Light, Saturn. Religion was more important for the emperor Constantine and the bishops and that’s the reason why they decided to celebrate Jesus Christ’s birthday on the 25th of December. For all Christians Jesus is their light.

Santa Claus is actually a native from Siberia. He is in the Siberian tradition and stories a shaman, a medicine man or woman. In the ancient times the medicine men and women wore red and white colored clothes. As all shamans do, they did do shamanic journeys often. For more information read Doe-a-deer-a-female-deer. It is well known Santa Claus is accompanied by a reindeer. Together they travel around the world to give presents to everyone. For a very long time both Santa Claus and his reindeer vanished until the 30’s. Coca Cola had a great idea and used Santa Claus and the reindeer for his commercials and ever since that time Santa Claus and his reindeer are very popular.


What is the meaning of Christmas today? Christmas is a time of celebrating this event with family. It’s a time of happiness, decorated houses and Christmas trees with light everywhere. But there are also presents and Christmas cards. Many people cherish this time of year.

This part of the year is a time of peace and stillness. Here we take a break and take the time to go back in time and remember the things happened last year. It is also a fresh start for the next year to come. This part of the year, between Christmas and New Year is special because we celebrate the New Year to come with new possibilities. But at the same time the veil between this world and the Other World (or God, The Creator, The Source) is very thin. It means wishes and intentions we have, will be noticed quickly in the Other World. What we wished for and our intentions will be manifested quickly in the New Year. This part of the year is the best time to wish each other all the best and these wishes will be manifested in the New Year as well because they pass through the thin veil easily. It’s very important to stay positive and focus on our wishes. Be kind to yourself and to other people and animals. Be thankful for the things we have in life.


For the people who feel alone during Christmas I want to tell them we are not alone, we are never alone. Many people experience the feeling of loneliness, to be alone in this world…whatever the reason may be. But that’s not true. We have to know there are persons who care about us. They are always with us and protect us. I am talking about the energy that is called God, The Creator, Allah or Buddha, but also our ancestors, our (guardian) angels and our power animals and guides of the Other World. Many of us can’t feel nor see them, but they are there every minute of our life. So when you do feel lonely, close your eyes and clear your head and you will see them and feel their presence. To be aware of their existence, gives us comfort and the guarantee to be with others.

So enjoy this period, cherish the things and persons (people and animals) around you and give love, support and help the ones in need. This will be your present to them. Be kind to yourself and make wishes, because right now the veil between this world and the Other World is very thin.



Sacred Sex

Salt N Pepa sing “Let’s talk about sex baby, let’s talk about you and me”. Sex……We all have sex. We have sex because we are sexually aroused, we make love because we love the other person deeply and want to share ourselves with that special person. We have sex with ourselves. We have sex to reproduce. But there is also another kind of sex… Sacred Sex.

Sacred Sex is more than ‘just sex’ and making love. This is much more and deep, so deep, it will connect You with Your Higher Self and even with the Universe.

Sacred Sex means, knowing a part of You which was lying under a transparent veil. When this part awakens, it leads you to all your deepest desires and to The Great Wisdom that we  all have deep within us. It is like making a journey to another planet. Over there you will find the answers you seek and know what to do in this world. IT IS MAKING LOVE WITH YOUR HIGHER SELF.



To depart this Earth

Death and life…. Life and death, those two words are intertwining. Death is part of life and vice versa.  That’s why I am not afraid for Death because I know he is part of the life cycle. I always say Death is just a new start of another life. Nature has the same idea about Death and Life. So it accepts Death as it is.

I know that when a body dies, Spirit remains. So it is impossible to experience Death and what happens after this while I am still alive. When it is my time to go and I am in the Other World, it is not possible to return to tell my experience how it is to be dead. However, there are many exceptions (people who experienced a nearly death experience).


I experienced many times the separation of the Spirit from the body. No, I was not dead for a few minutes and still I had that experience. It happened on Kingsday (on this day the Netherlands celebrates the king’s birthday) (I think it was the very first one). I like to sleep late on the weekends and that day was no exception. To be honest I also had a rough night. During my nap I suddenly stood next to the bed at the wall side. In real life it’s impossible to stand there because that space between bed and wall is very small (20cm). Still, I stood there. I wore the same pajamas as the night before and I was watching myself! At that moment I immediately knew I was out of my body. I felt very excited and loved the experience! I was happy and felt a serenity coming over me. I was happy as my little niece always is. Her happiness is pure and she has no worries. The whole time I was smiling and had no worries. I was still watching myself all the time, I was watching my mortal body in that big bed, but I was still alive! At that moment I knew I had the same experience as a person who passed away. One day is my time to go, but I, my soul will remain. I will be still Patricia or whatever my real name may be.

This experience and awareness gave me more peace of mind. I do not have to wonder how it feels when I’m gone and I have the knowlegde that it is not necessary to have fear for Death. The fact our Spirit will remain after we die, is very comforting. There IS life after Death! The only thing we have to do is accept it and be in peace with it. I always feel sorry for people who say they are very afraid to die and have the urgent to fight with Death to stay in this life. It is not necessary and the only thing we have to do is let go.

Even I tricharles-frizzelled to stop Death twice in the past. As a shaman I make many spiritual journeys, not just for myself but also for animals and other people. Every journey is very special and this one was no exception. During this journey I met Death. I tried very hard to stop him and fought with Death! I made myself clear by telling him he had to leave. Death was in this journey a dark, tall and big figure, twice my size. I had no chance and for me it was very exhausted to fight him. Our first fight I won and he left….for a short time. The second time Death returned, his appearance was different from the last time, he was a tsunami wave. 3241-18624-thickboxThis time I sat in a small boat in the open ocean and tried to reach land as soon as possible. So happy I was to see land! For the second time I succeeded to avoid Death. But at the end Death won and I had to accept it. My lesson out of this experience is that’s impossible to fight Death and try to beat it. When our time is near to leave this world, it is our time. We have to learn to accept Death as Nature does. Accept it, let go and be in peace with it. It is a very simple formula.

Acceptation, how easy is it? Can we accept Death? Nature does. In my personal life I meet many deceased animals. As a shaman and a human being I don’t see these animals as a bad omen. There is a reason I meet these deceased animals. When I meet one of these animals I always check if their soul is still present. Often I see just the bodies, without soul. Often enough I see bodies which the soul is still present. When I see one, I always tell the soul it is free to go into the Light or the Source. The animals react differently. Some animals are angry and annoyed about the human ignorance and arrogance. Others though, are down to earth about their death, shrug their shoulders like “O, did I die? Ok, which way do I have to go to the light?” Happily whistling or singing they follow their path. Other animals knów they died but want to stay near the body because they want to enjoy the last sunbeam or want to analyze the life they had lived. And there are animals that don’t know what happened and still think they are alive. They don’t know what to do or where to go. I always tell these animals they are no longer in their physical body and they can go to the Light. After hearing this information, most animals know what to do and follow the path into the Light, others though, need more guiding.

One day I saw a dead drake (male duck) in the water. He was situated in a bad position and at the time I made contact with him, the young drake did not know what exactly happened. I told him the story what might could have been happen but his confusing became even bigger and he panicked. He just lost the way. I explained everything for the second time and after hearing this story the drake asked me to company him to the Light. I agreed and together we followed the Path. On our way we asked each other some questions about our lives when suddenly we saw an angel surrounded by a bright, beautiful light. She already awaited uEngel 1s. She told Young Drake he was welcome and he could enter. Me, she stopped me. She told it was not my time. I explained it to Drake which he understood. For the entrance with the golden gates, we said goodbye to each other and the angel guided Drake inside. I saw them enter the other World and felt pity for myself I could not enter. There, it is so serene and peaceful. I really wanted to go further. All alone I walked down the path, back to this world.

Koen the shamancat

Koen the cat is a very special animal. Somebody asked me for help and  introduced us to each other. At that time Koen wasn’t happy at all. He is a FIV cat and receives special attention. Koen wasn’t pleased at our first meeting and didn’t want to say a word and was testing me by being aggressive! From me he expected the same reaction he was accustomed, people flinching backward and  saying he was very aggressive and scary. However, he didn’t scare me at all and I starting the consultation. I told him it is nice to cuddle with humans and it is ok to be himself, to be happy.

After a few days, I received a short video about Koen. In this video I saw he was cuddling with his caretakers! Koen changed his life and had become a new person!

I was stunned with surprise and very happy for Koen he discovered this new way of life. The first time I met him, Koen was not interested in life, he was very timid and suspicious. The video showed the real person Koen is. After our first meeting, Koen and I had more conversations and every time Koen showed us how powerful he was (and is). He surprised everybody many times and manifested some important intentions in his life. I was very impressed about his inner strength and decided to name him Shaman. Koen understood many things very fast and his intentions were so strong, they manifested immediately. The very last time I spoke Koen, he said to me not to worry about him. Everything is going to be alright. I have faith in him and I know he will be doing fine :). At the moment I do not know how Koen is doing. I hope he is doing fine and that one day he will find his forever home with a happy end :).